Thursday, June 21, 2012

My Top 5: Things I Do When Having The Worst Day

What do you do when you're having the worst kind of day?

I'm not talking about a flat tire or a ruined party dress. Those seem like vacations compared to what I think constitutes a really bad day. Just imagine the worst possible scenario. THERE - the worst kind of day!

Personally, I have several approaches to these so-called colossally bad days, but since it's a top 5 list, clearly, I can't enumerate them all. Here they are:

5. Make desperate attempts to make things right - then let the chips fall where they may. This is not necessarily the first thing I do when things go wrong, but it seemed the most responsible, most sensible, most obvious thing to do in time of crises. We pray we be granted with the "serenity to change the things we can, accept those we cannot, and the wisdom to know the difference." Sometimes we're lucky, sometimes we just have to go with it. I'd like to think I don't give up that easily. I mean, if I did, I'd be long gone by now. On a more serious albeit morbid note, I have contemplated suicide before. Too many times to count. Mostly in my dazed and confused high school years, but a couple here and there during college and long after, too. I guess I just liked to cover all the bases (i.e. Plan A = attack, Plan B = retreat, Plan C= surrender). Of course I know better now. Killing myself is completely out of the question.

4. Pizza. Or a quarter pounder w/ cheese. Or finding the nearest buffet I can find/think of. Food always solves things for the moment of ingestion. After that, I feel pretty much the same, except I've gained a considerable amount of pounds and I hate myself a little for it.

3. Welcome any other form of distraction...until I have to deal with it again. Sleep, a few games of Words With Friends, watch a movie. All of which have an end. Before you know it, you wake up, you win or lose the game, and the credits start rolling. Then panic sets in. Until I somehow fall asleep again, play another bout with faceless friendlies online, or catch another flick. And the cycle starts all over again.

2. Cry. Sometimes there's nothing else you can do but cry. You want to solve the problem; take it, burn it, turn it into ash. You want to make things better, but you have absolutely no idea how. Like when you lose something and don't know how to get it back. You search everywhere and you know it's lost forever. How the hell do you solve that?? Cue the tears.

1. Pray. No matter what kind of day you're facing, pray. If it's a good day, pray that it stays that way. Be thankful for everything and everyone. Be grateful. If it's a bad day, pray a little harder. Be thankful, still, that you're even breathing and that you are armed with possibilities. It ain't over until it's over. While you have air in your lungs, it definitely isn't the end.

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Wednesday, June 20, 2012

Wordless: Yellow

A gift for my husband on Father's Day. :)

Saturday, June 16, 2012

Saturday 9: Changes

This week's Saturday 9 was supposed to be all about the summer. However, since I live where I live, summertime is just about over. Actually, the rainy season just started over here (we're on tropical storm #2 for the year). So, I decided to talk about last week's Saturday 9 instead. And here it goes...

1. Do you believe people can truly change? I do. They'd have to really want to, of course.

2. Do you think there is anything wrong with being average? There's nothing wrong with being average. Contentment is relative. If you're happy where you are, no matter how quiet or extravagant your life is, then that's where you should be.

3. Do you believe in fairy tale love? Even when I thought I wasn't going to get married and have my happily ever after, I believed in it, yes.

4. Has anyone ever spread something malicious about you? Oh, yeah.

5. Have you ever done something at a party that you've ever regretted? Oh. Yeah. lol

6. How do you go about setting your goals? I used to make mental notes, that's it. But lately, I find it more attainable if I write things down, plan a course of attack, and follow through each one.

7. Do you believe you deserve everything you want? Sometimes, I do. The unreasonable part of me feels I deserve more, but realistically, I know I need to do/be more to merit anything more than I get.

8. Do you have people in your life you could always count on? Thank God, I do.

9. Did you ever make a close friend from someone that you've dated? Hmmm not close, but yeah, I've remained friends with them.

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Friday, June 15, 2012

Often I Search...

1. It's always nice when I wake up in the morning and I don't have to be anywhere!
2. I like to hear food sizzling - makes me hungrier.
3. Positive attracts positive; negative attracts negative.
4. "This is your life, are you who you want to be?" ~ Switchfoot
5. What I heard was not necessarily the truth.
6. Often, I search my name on Google just because.
7. And as for the weekend, tonight I'm looking forward to having dinner and drinks (non-alcoholic for me) with the girls, tomorrow my plans include driving south to watch hubby play football and Sunday, I want to prepare a nice home-cooked meal for hubby and the in-laws for Father's Day!

Happy Friday!

Rock Of Ages - It Just Plain Old Rocked

Yes. I give it 4 stars because 1) the soundtrack rocks, 2) even Tom Cruise rocked, and 3) everybody else in the movie rocked.

No one could've played Stacee Jaxx better than Tom Cruise, I think. I mean, after seeing what he did, it's hard to imagine anyone else in that role. He fit the bill perfectly.

I could go on and on about how great it all was. The bottom line is...I want the soundtrack, I want the DVD when it comes out, and I want my life to be a Rock of Ages musical.

Rock on! \m/(>.<)\m/

Thursday, June 14, 2012

Wish I Was Fearless Like Chuck Norris

Those who truly know me would agree with me when I say I am not the bravest person in the world. Sure, I've taken on Goliath (the roller coaster, not the actual giant Philistine warrior, come on) and performed numerous times in front of crowds of all sizes, but generally, I feel that I really lack in the confidence/fearlessness department. That's why I approach almost everything with supreme caution and, sometimes, needless panic.

While going over pregnancy books, I read that people with low self esteem and confidence levels may have been deprived of time and affection by their parents. Hmm. Looking back, that could've been true in my case. I mean, I was never close to my mother, not until I was all grown up. The fact that I wasn't breastfed reinforces this theory. So yeah, maybe that's one of the main reasons why I cringe at the thought of the uncomfortable and unfamiliar, why I grab at every psychological crutch I can get my hands on so I don't fall flat on my face or, worse, don't go through it at all.

So what does give me strength, courage, hope, and all those positively positive things? Aside from verbal encouragement, which usually works for many, I guess even more fear pushes me down those winding, uncertain roads. Fear that if I don't do it, things will just get worse than they could be or already are. Twisted, isn't it.

I could not think of any particular traumatic moment in my youth that attributed to my pantophobia (the fear of everything). Perhaps it was because my mother pushed me on to every stage even when I didn't feel like it. Or maybe we're all predisposed to fear from the second we are conceived. Who knows. I sure as hell don't. But whatever the reason is, I have to give myself a little credit. I mean, considering the levels of fear I've had to face all throughout my life, I'm still here, aren't I? Still standing, breathing, and acquainting myself with brand new fears I never knew existed.

What about you? What do you fear most and how do you overcome it?

"I have accepted fear as a part of life, specifically the fear of change, the fear of the unknown. I have gone ahead despite the pounding in the heart that says: Turn back, turn back; you'll die if you venture too far." ~ Erica Jong

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Wednesday, June 13, 2012

Wordless: Día de la Independencia de Filipinas

Philippine Azkals Team Captain Aly Borromeo.

Sunday, June 10, 2012

On Bangs, Stitches, and Emergency Rooms

LunaNina says ... and I think ...

Stitches :: C-Section.
Reckless :: Driving.
Wealth :: Health.
Tenant :: Rent.
Recognize :: Awareness.
Hospital :: Emergency Room.
Bangs :: Makes the face look smaller.
Hello :: Goodbye.
Folder :: Organize.
Glamour :: Illusion.

Saturday, June 9, 2012

Snow Day

Title: Run
Artist: Katherine McPhee (Snow Patrol cover)
Dedication: To those who are going to the Snow Patrol concert in August...I PRAY I SEE YOU ALL THEN!!!

Friday, June 8, 2012

I Knew It Was Love When...

1. I knew it was love when he just wouldn't stop looking at me...and I him!
2. My heart can be broken but you always find a way to un-break it.
3. A dog is man's bestfriend, just not mine.
4. My how you have grown.
5. Can you see me?
6. And the winner of the Pacquiao-Bradley fight is...
7. And as for the weekend, tonight I'm looking forward to doing the laundry, tomorrow my plans include lunch with the in-laws then we're off to the theme park with hubby's family who are visiting from Singapore, and Sunday, I want to catch the Pacquiao-Bradley fight after picking up the housekeeper at the airport!


Oh, Bayo

It all started with these print ads...

Then an ad with a "What's Your Mix?" manifesto that circulated the net, which only made things worse...

And then, the inevitable apology (what took them so long?!)...

This latest Bayo campaign just irks me so. To promote buying Filipino is good and all (I've always been a big fan of their products), but to even mention that "mixing nationalities with Filipinos is almost a sure formula for someone beautiful and world class" is just misleading at best. Big love to the half-and-halfS, but what is Bayo really trying to say here? And, I'm sorry, but the manifesto wasn't even written well. Made me doubt it was a real ad to begin with. I honestly hoped it wasn't. But, alas, I was wrong.

Full-blooded Filipinos (glutathione junkies included) are just as beautiful, talented, and awesome as our mixed-heritage brothers and sisters. It shouldn't even be a question of how much percent Filipino or German or American or Australian a person is. Last time I checked, we ALL had the same color blood.

Since Philippine Independence Day is just around the corner, I urge all Filipinos - pure bloods, half bloods, muggles, and squibs alike - to stand proud and love the skin they're in. Oh, and I wish Manny Pacquiao victory in tomorrow's bout (Saturday night PST) - may he knock Timothy Bradley out. MABUHAY ANG PILIPINAS, MABUHAY ANG FILIPINO!

Thursday, June 7, 2012

Friendly Gone Wild - Azkals vs Indonesia Highlights (And Low-blows)

So Tuesday's FIFA friendly between the Philippine Azkals and Timnas Indonesia turned out to be, oh, not so friendly after all. The first half was pretty much uneventful. Great efforts though by our boys, especially Jason Sabio for his slick throw-ins and Angel Guirado's beautiful headers. By the end of it, the score was still 0-0; players on both teams had a decent workout and nothing more. By the second half, things definitely got more interesting. Much more interesting.

The ever huggable Coach Weiss (wearing his dashing mini-bib at the request of the referee lol) decided to heat things up with a more offensive play, bringing in bash brothers James and Phil Younghusband, among others, for "the kill." The Indonesians made the first goal, passed the skillful hands of Fulham's very own Neil Etheridge. But James quickly did an offset a minute later. The determined visitors let one between Etheridge's legs, leading the scoreboard 2-1. Then Phil evens out the score just a few minutes shy of the final whistle blow. But the highlight of the match? All those red cards flying about, for sure.

Indonesia's star import Irfan Bacchdim gets all in-your-face with Azkals vice-captain Chieffy Caligdong and a couple of others nearby, meriting both of them and another Azkal Manny Ott, some bloody reds. Which only means they can't play in the next friendly against Guam at Panaad. And in between all that action? Some racist chants by Indonesian supporters from the bleachers, taunting mixed-heritage players of the Azkals. Just how low could they go?? Good thing our own Kaholeros and Filipino supporters answered back with "No To Racism" cheers and even clapped for the Indonesian team as they exited the stadium. That'll teach 'em.

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Wednesday, June 6, 2012

Wordless: 22 Weeks

Tuesday, June 5, 2012

Long @ss Hiatus

I haven't written much in the last year. Not for work, not for fun, and obviously not on here. I guess I've been busy with other things. Well, maybe not busy busy. Just...distracted. I do miss it though. That's why I promised myself I'd make more of an effort to write even the most nonsensical rants. And what better place to start than here.

"Welcome back, Frizzy," so I say to myself with a reassuring pat on the back. I've done it before, I can easily do it again. After all, that's what this blog is all about - imperfection at its finest indeed.